I'm Just a Girl in a Bar

FYWF Explanatory Notes

2008-06-26T13:46:00.002-06:00

Okay, so I definitely felt that this needed to be written. I've had several people comment that they can't believe that Meredith would leave her children, and a part of me agrees. However, when I sat down to start this story, I thought about all of the stories in which Meredith leaves and doesn't tell Derek that she's pregnant. She raises their kid alone for however many years and then there's some.. reunion and all that jazz. You've read them, I've read them, we've all read them. I'm not knocking those stories - I've read some really, really good ones. I've also read some really good ones that involve Derek raising a kid by himself and then meeting Meredith, etc. I wanted to do something original. Obviously, the anatomical jazz limits what you can do to leave Derek alone with Meredith's kid and not have Meredith die or have amnesia. So, The Fear You Won't Fall was born. I'm not trying to pardon Meredith or say that her behavior was acceptable because it most definitely was not. She's trying now, though. She and Derek are working on the give and take, and everyone is growing along the way. Anyway, that's all I have to say for now. Read and review :)
-Kellie

FYWF Chapter 6 Notes

2007-03-24T12:20:00.000-06:00

The Fear You Won't Fall (FYWF). Updated. And here are your notes :)

FYWF - The Hardest Part

01. Izzie - I've heard a lot of criticism of Izzie in reviews. Poor Izzie. My heart kind of goes out to her because she feels like she's being replaced, but at the same time, she's being... really, well, quite bitchy about it. Anyway, you got to see more bitchiness. Like? Hate?
02. The Title - The Hardest Part (Coldplay)
03. The Chapter - I liked it, I think. Well, you see that Derek is still... not over it. And he shouldn't be. Meredith did do a horrible thing. Addison gets it - she's done something like that before. Unfortunately, Derek still doesn't get it. He hurt Meredith. A lot. And that's gonna be a problem that has to be solved before they ride off into the sunset. The next chapter should be fun to write, but I hope you liked the angst in this. I'm getting the feeling from reviews that angst is love, so I'm going to keep on with the angst!

General Notes

01. I'm having fun with this, even though the actual show seems to be.. odd right now. Whatever. Chris Van Dusen? Love that guy now. Shonda? Not so much love. Oh well. *goes back to reading about Patrick Dempsey bringing sexy back*
02. Blog - good or no? Comment, por favor, and let me know.

Love, Kellie

Fear You Won't Fall Chapter 2 Notes

2007-02-26T17:26:00.000-06:00

Oh, this is going to be so much fun. Aren't you excited?! Well, I know I am. This blog will serve as a place for me to spout off about The Fear You Won't Fall (FYWF). FF.net finally let me update it. Ah! Sometimes I love that site, and sometimes I hate it. Anyway... we're here to cover.. a few topics. We'll go in an list.

FYWF - Wherever You Will Go

01. The Sex - Okay, I'm sure many of you are questioning my decision to put that in there, and I really had to think about it a long time. I considered a sleeping in the same bed thing, but the angry sex has a better effect. Because.. well, you'll see in future chapters that the sex meant nothing. Yeah, it's Meredith and Derek, and the sex usually does mean something, but here... it is what it is. And it's nothing. They won't discuss it anytime soon.
02. The Title - Um... I'll address the title of the story in the future. Right now, I want to discuss the title of this chapter, Wherever You Will Go (The Calling). People, look at this song. Meredith's actions were wrong. Very, very wrong. Read on, past the lyrics.

When I'm gone, you'll need love - Um.. they can't be there for Derek forever. That's all I'm saying.
...
With those dreams that are set in stone
Could you make it on your own - Can she? Can Meredith do this? I don't know...

And maybe I'll find out
A way to make it back someday - Yeah, key word someday. Not today. Or tomorrow.
...
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you - No comment.
...
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go - No explanation needed, I think.

03. The Chapter - Um. The title connects here. At first, the chapter is all about whether Meredith can fit back in. That question remains, and it's gonna stick around for awhile. But here's the thing. That ending scene? I had another way I was going to do it, with description in between the dialog - if you haven't noticed, I'm big on the emotional, etc. descriptions and not so much with the conversation. There will be scenes and chapters with a lot of dialog. Until this point in the chapter, it wasn't necessary. And then it was. You realize that Meredith needs to stay. She may not be able to fit back in, make things right with Derek, etc, but she does need to stay.

General Notes

01. I have SO much planned for this story, and I really hope you guys want to stick around to see where it goes. I have over thirty scenes that I want to include, and that doesn't begin to cover everything. There are major issues here, and they won't be resolved in a week. Meredith left Derek and their kids. High and dry. That will not go away. Derek won't take Meredith back anytime soon. *closes mouth*
02. Let me know the good, the bad, the ugly. Well, I would prefer if you didn't do reviews like "THIS STORY SUCKS BALLS." And then end your review there... but I figure if you're reading the blog, that's a good sign. Let me know if you don't like the blog... whatever. Email or comment here.

And now I must attend to pertinent homework. Oh the joys of school. Love, Kellie